Progress

The definition of progress is the movement towards a goal or to a further, higher stage.

Right now I truly feel that I am progressing in my fittness. I have to say, this sucks and it is not easy.  When I started P90X last week, I was uninspired about my ability to stick with the exercise at the pace recommended.  There have even been a few times when I just didn't want to do it at all, throw in the towel and call it quits!  But I made it through the first week and I feel pretty good. I haven't lost a bucket of weight, and I still make horrible food choices (ie. the pizza tonight) but I can feel something changing, and best of all, I'm trying!

I didn't think that just trying to do something would make the difference that it has, but it feels good. I feel willing, and I know that is a little strange, but I am starting to acknowledge that I have within me the ability to change something that I want to.  I didn't realize that I had stopped trying, it is a little strange to think of living a life without trying, but a complacent life is what I feel like I was living. Un-plugged from my own life, I was just going along for the ride, rolling with whatever got thrown at me. A very stressful way to go through life now that I look at it.

Now I'm not saying that exercise has breathed new life into me, but there is lot that it has shown me. When you make a commitment to a person it's easy to just plod along quietly fullfilling it. But when you have to decide, every day, to do something to make your life better it's different! It makes you different. So keep your fingers crossed, it's a three month journey and I'm psyched for new stuff I will  discover about me.

Nature girl