Today is a strange day.
Oddly I feel that way a lot right now, but it's 11 o'clock here and I just feel like it's going to be an odd day. I have a lot of little things to take care of today and I feel sluggish to get them done. Four cop cars just screamed by and everyone here just stopped to watch them go by... it's just a strange day.
Sometimes I just feel like a lamp that isn't, quite, plugged in. A little glitchy, not quite fully plugged in and grasping for any extra power. But I don't think that there is anything causing this malaise, I think I just woke up fuzzy. I've been reading this book called "The 21 Day Conciousness Cleanse" and it's strange the things that it makes you think about.
For about a week and a half I've been thinking about my two best-friends from high school at least once a day. I meet people with their names or birthdates, see a trio of girls, or eat certain foods. Now thank goodness I've had a constant stream of support from friends and family regarding the move or I'd be stuck in the past! I don't know how they are doing or what they are up to past the basics of our shared friend group, but I still feel a strong connection to them. I wish them both nothing but happiness and stability, but sometimes I feel that connection and pull on my energies more than other times... it's a place that I still lose energy to after all these years.
It seems that there are people or events like this for everyone. Things that we can't quite let go of, people we wish we're closer, or events that marked our souls. The process of growing up and letting go, is an imperfect experience. I guess this is where the concept of regret comes from - wishing something had happened differently than it did. Love and peace and resolution are not things that come to people who did everything right the first time. They are gifts to be earned by those who did it wrong over and over until it was right...learning along the way.
...Nature girl
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